Mercurial [mixtape]

by Creative Space Cadet

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about

Mercurial is not meant to uplift. Mercurial is not to be held as a truth of the Cadet. Mercurial is a container for the memories of growing in Illinois, both from love, and the pain in twisting love into something it should never be.

credits

released April 20, 2018

Recorded in Chicago (IL), Batavia (IL), Bartlett (IL), Savannah (GA), and Detroit (MI) over the course of 10 months.
Production by CS Cadet on tracks 1, 2, 3, 5, 6, 7, and 10.
Production by Rob Lyon/Coheleth on tracks 4 and 8.
Production by VICTOR! M. Cervantes on track 9.
Engineered, mixed and (lazily) mastered by CS Cadet.
Art by Connie Chu.

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Track Name: Answers (feat. Dew)
I will write til the shit fits tight
Might fight your bestie outta ripe spite
Aight?
Whatever floats your fancy
October blue
Fuck you T. Clancy
We dance and we dip on coin flips
Dick like Coyne
The Flaming Lips
LowerLIpDrip lips off to any
December trips I ball n sip Henney
Did OF trademark this type of flow
I'm waiting for loiters to say aight though
Like WOAH
Still party startin
Disheartened Assata didn't get a decent pardon
Partisan in mentions
Dick rider in DMs
Y'all cling to the walls like posters to 3M
Miss me with the salesman smile
Catch me crossfaded to J Belfort's trial

NO ANSWERS
JUST QUESTIONS
NO ANSWERS
JUST QUESTIONS
NO LONGER QUIET
WE THRIVE ON TENSION
Track Name: The Illest (feat. LowerLipDrip)
AY you
You the one rude
You eve know who
The fuck you speakin to?
CS Cadet
Royalty in debt but bet
Life's the fuckin best
I'm a walkin mess
Walk into a war
I'm Christ with the poor
give your respect
To the workers of sex
Hand over paychecks
What you gonna say next
Whole note rest
Bars back by request
Not backed by reserves
I don't fuck with the f*ds
Best believe
I be ghostin on machines
I roast all your teams
And dose up the fiends
Please
You know I'm famous overseas
I don't fuck with your scene
I fuck like I'm mean
Ha
It's obscene bruh
In a jeep what
Gettin sweet top
Later hit the G Spot
Spotted downtown
Runnin your crown
Throw your ass to the ground just to sample the sound

[Eduardo talks mad shit]

WE THE ILLEST

[DM Dew if you wanna know his verse tbh i' tired of typing rn[
Track Name: Eyes Cold [prod. Coheleth]
Electrified
Never been one to
Provide or decide
Only take hold when i
Know that its mine
All in the mind
All slowly defined

Quick to contradict
My Souls evicted
I’m conflicted
Sick n submissive
Stuck in the mischief
days fade daily with a
Quick spliff

Eyes cold on the
Ides of March
I ain’t done so
Don’t you start
I ain’t dumb but
I ain’t smart
When you ran you took my heart
When you ran you took my heart
When you ran you took my heart

Flash forward some years just to flash back
Now I can vocalize panic attacks
What the fuck good does that do though
You know
No control
Never was
Never will be
Still not sure what the fuck is in me
Empty thoughts in a fried mind
Ego fucked up, check the star sign

Nowhere to go but I'm on time
Nothing to own but it's all mine
I need to grow in the sun shine
I need to know if we're all fine

Eyes cold on the
Ides of March
I ain’t done so
Don’t you start
I ain’t dumb but
I ain’t smart
When you ran you took my heart
When you ran you took my heart
When you ran you took my heart

Long drive home from about mid-state
Long time alone checkin astral fate
You ain’t elated to see me
I ain’t to be me
love receding
It’s repeating

Complex placeholding
Same cards
No hearts
Fuck
i’m folding

Few months away from departing the state
New dude in your bed so you clear up the slate

Any reason why - oh you had plenty
Hold my failing health against me
Every fuckin time i stood sentry
Cold blue eyes they look so empty
Track Name: Doses
Green Solara
Sixth and Stevens
It’s the karma
We’re the heathens
Treat me to a pack of cigarettes and you can bet
I wanna be by your side past the sunsets

No haven no homes
We ride n we roam
Killing our time
Or just dyin to know
No place to go so pull into a parkin space
Jump into the backseat n let imagination race

We talked of a future
We never knew
Abstractions n bliss
And mentions of schools

Somethin so perfect
Some people worth it
Takin in the damage n
fryin out the circuits

Person to person
Put a price to the pain
It stops the hurtin
When i say your name

You set the rules
I played your game
From then on out
It was never the same

Keep me dosed up with that dopamine
You’re chokin me
I don’t even know
Who I wanna be

We fall out
We fall in
Skatin over memories
That ice is thin
How ya been
Where you goin
Overtly potent
chemistry of moments

The science ain’t exact
But we seem to react
We’re the codependant flames
In the actual fact

We look to projections
Of the stars in the sky
I didn’t hold your hand
I couldn’t think of why

The following weeks
You place a kiss on my cheek
But still the feelin
That you’ll always leave

That fear controlled
All truth be told
I was fucking up
I was distant n cold

So damn sold on the ideal
Not real
Not a date we just out here
Sharin meals
Only thing we took from one another was the tickin time
Every fuckin second tappin up a new imporvin high
Track Name: No Sleep pt. 1 [prod. Coheleth]
I remember every night i never slept
The ghost of you was there
I remember every night i never slept
Every night you never cared

You were so fucking cool
Its stupid
So fluent in movement
Truant amusement
Hands so study and soothin
Mad passion pursuant
Individual n fluid
You were fuckin groovin

Place is space
Cadet’s the taste
You tested n flexed
Alt timeline context
I mean it with no disrespect
Only actual admiration
All touch met with elation

Every bad bar written is a
Bullet loaded in the chamber
So what i wrote for you is 800 projectiles
Of pure fuckin danger
Only stranger correlations with the stars
I dreamed of a bond that was never ours
Water with fire for me and
Earth for the taurus
Courtship affection flares after time of harvest
I was starvin

I remember every night i never slept
The ghost of you was there
I remember every night i never slept
Every night you never cared
Track Name: No Sleep pt. 2 [prod. VICTOR!]
-What it means to me
Livin like i hope my soul is free
When the stream breaks down it breaks down to this
Wanna do somethin else or makeout bliss

-I accept conditions
It’s all superstitious visions
Self confidence conflict with historical abstinence
- imagine this

panic hits specific
With kickdrum rhythmic
It’s the new sickness
Paired with waves of folk who add me to the shitlist
Physical unfitness with a fist shit
Bit my lip and bit the bullet
Cock the gun i’ll fuckin shoot it
You grabbed my cock you fuckin knew it
I wanna love I’M FUCKIN HUMAN

NO SLEEP
NO SLEEP
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO ME
NO SLEEP
NO SLEEP
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO ME
NO SLEEP
NO SLEEP
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME
YOU DON’T KNOW YOU DON’T KNOW

NO SLEEP
NO SLEEP
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO ME
NO SLEEP
NO SLEEP
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO ME
NO SLEEP
NO SLEEP
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME
YOU DON’T KNOW YOU DON’T KNOW



Different days in different ways
Anxious headspace
Back at your place

TV screens disrupt our daze
Look in your face
Look for more grace

We can’t stand another second
I can’t write another message
I take hold on every moment
No control or way to own it

That night
preserved
in terms
of taste
Our fingers slip
below
each waist
Ain’t that fuckin great!

No discourse on the meaning
Baby I’ve been fuckin bleeding
Sayin every fleeting feeling
Letting go no mo concealin

For real, I was a dumbfuck
Possession took hold ran amok
Too rooted in the normative
Brainwash years so formative

Performative actions after the fact
Lookin for meals but i needed a snack
Takin photos of your hair from the back
Out of my mind like fuckin wit crack

Well shit - I love you
Who the fuck do I put above you
say it aloud we’re done dude
END OF DAY subdued

Rudely awakened
Depression has me taken
Naps from 8 to 8 n
I still haven’t figured out how to sleep to the date
WAIT
I STAY UP LATE N THINK OF FATE
Track Name: Trying Not To Be Human
How many spent years in the valley
How many years in northside alleys
How many years since I’ve seen your face
How many friends have departed this place

All in numbers doesn’t mean shit
All the lovers with the regrets
Lost time for the lost bets
Lost souls in the darkness

Pardon this pain for the peace of the prophet
Part of me knows at the point I stop it
I’m just honest
I’m just hurt
I’m pretty fuckin sorry for what that’s worth

Not much now
Maybe somethin then
Some nuance
I couldn’t even begin to defend

Maybe i’ll stick this out to an end
Maybe overthrow this government

Think of you sitting right herebehind me
Critiquing what I wanna do well past hobby
Here so oddly 2016
Towards tail end of being a burdening fiend

Obscene to the past tense to meet again
New sense of pride -in a distant friend
Two souls stand- to make amends
Our lives - have yet to end

Let’s get on that spaceship
Show me all the stars
Let’s get on that spaceship
Take me somewhere out so far

Let me in or cut me out
Let me know what you’re about
Anarchist or hedonist
Unknown or B-list

I’ll leave this state
Bury ways
Kill my name
Feel no shame
Take no more and walk away
At the core no more games

Fuck war and fuck off
I’m sensitive
You’re soft
Senseless
With molotovs
Hack through
Your protocol

Time to transcend
Time of advent
Understanden
We’re commanden

Our projection of self in this space
Please define what could be a place
It’s baseless
It’s bassless

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